it's like you don't exist anymore. I haven't heard from you in months.

You were always so gentle and so cold. I loved throwing my arms around you, after not having seen you in a long time. I always made the mistake of taking you for granted when you were around. And then I would desperately search for your smell, all around the apartment when you left. I was afraid I'd go through life without anyone ever telling me I was beautiful, but didn't realize I could start out by saying, "you're beautiful," instead of narcissistically pining away. I miss sunny days when we were together. I miss how great you are at being in the winter. Winter seems so long without you. I want it to be warm so I can forget more easily. I'll wake up today and act like nothing is happening. But I still miss you so much.